wedding week!!! blog 1 of 7

Well...I figured i'd let everyone have daily updates about my wedding!! So today i tanned and then finished my wedding cd...It is awesome!!! I can't wait for everyone to hear it!! Then i made my programs. Now i just need to take them to staples and have them print them and fold them...yay!!! So much fun!!! Now i'm just waiting on my Cori to get back to Cleveland tonight so i can show her my programs...i can't wait!!! Only 6 more days!!! woot-woot!! I'm going tomorrow and giving Latta's sister my application to the Doughnut Connection!! fun fun! Extra cash moneys. Anyways, so i went like 3 days without washing my hair...just a little fun fact about me this week. Well i guess i'll type more tomorrow!!

FINALLY!!!

So...this is it...i more week and i start a new chapter in my life...am i scared? yes. who wouldn't be? I'm leaving my parents who've i've known for almost 21 years and going to marry a man i've only known for 2 1/2 years...kinda scary huh? i'm excited but scared. no more relying on mommy and daddy, now me and phillip have 1 life together. When i was little i was always afraid to get married. I remember seeing things on t.v about husbands killing their wives and kids and i said that i wasn't gonna get married because my husband would kill me...i know its crazy but hey! ya never know. But i know philip wouldn't do that. Anyways, i'm excited! I can't wait to have kids with him. I can't wait to see what they look like. But that'll be a long way from now....i'm not like the sluts that i went to school with that had kids when they were 13. I take birth control...yeah...belive it or not little 16 year olds...there's such a thing. Anyways, i also enrolled back into cleveland state to become an EMT. I know that my calling is the medical field and i believe God (and cori) is also calling me to become an EMT. Plus, i've never wanted anything more. And as most of you know, i quit a couple of years ago but i'm gonna finish this time!! I want to do something that will make phillip proud and make my family and friends proud of me and i'm gonna kick this class's butt and it's not gonna scare me like it did the last time. I know that if God wants me to do this, and i try my darn hardest, he'll help me through it.

I thought i graduated from high school drama in 2007???

I'm not gonna say names because i'm not like that...so can i noy say anything that i believe in??? i say one thing to somebody because i trust them to not say anything and they totally tell that certain person and then twist my words around...why??? i haven't done anything to them...ok i'm not perfect. i have hurt people and i totally regret it because i'm not that kind of person. i just tend to not think before i say them but this situation is different...so i guess i'm supposed to blend in with everybody and be conservative and just keep my thoughts to myself?? isn't this america?? i didn't mean to hurt anybody but i can't help what i believe in...this is ridicolus...but to sum it up...i'm not apologizing. i did nothing wrong. people just can't keep their mouths shut. so i'm innocent and if anybody wants to say anything let me know cause i want them to say it to my face because i'm standing up for what i believe in!!!!